Trance State - Particles and Waves

When I would enter trance state to see the ghost kids in the past few months, the moments before I 'd see particles like a star field come towards me inside the totally darkened bathroom.

But for the past few weeks, say since April, the star field has been replaced by a wave field.

What happened to change that? Is that another part of my consciousness, or another frequency?

Past Life Session 1 - June 2009

These are just the notes that my past life therapist jotted down while under hypnosis on June 22, 2009. Since then I have not yet gone back, but I have had other past lives memories come back to me, as written in other recent blog posts here. I fully believe now that the area I lived in during the lifetime described below was in the western portion of England, which is hilly, and that around age 20 I had dreamt of becoming a steeplechase racer, competing at Cheltenham, or somewhere similar.

• Age = 15 years old (1865)
  • Outdoors
  • Grass & Trees
  • Standing
  • Rolling hills, sparse trees
  • Alone
  • Male
  • Sandals on feet
  • Shorts
  • Hair brown
  • White skin
  • Rural England (what Town Name?)
  • Name = ?
• Description of our house
  • steep roof with red shingles
  • outside Tudor style
  • white with brown stucco
  • inside – chandaleer in entrance
  • 2 or 3 storey (quite large house)
• girl with blue & white dress (age 7?) - Marie?
  • walking right to left (friendlier than now)
  • resembles one of my sisters
  • man at top of stairs looking down
  • looks like current Dad
  • seems like he doesn't understand me
  • tension between him and I
  • Mom not there (maybe there, wearing dress)
  • Mom in older kitchen, with wood burning stove
  • Dad is the owner of the farm
  • Had others working for him
  • I did not help with farm
• Cat (1870)
  • Grey cat walking farm fence
  • Cat is in a happy mood
  • Short haired, age 5-10 years
  • Cat stays outdoors
  • family's cat
  • Nice day, feeling happy & peaceful
• I'm 20 years old (1870)
  • Another man (not Dad) who is leading the horse
  • Somebody who could help my Dad, who helped fix things around the farm
  • Dad is outside
  • I'm outside watching
  • Man has work clothes, not professionally dressed
  • Behaviour & health of horse
  • Now I'm talking with the man
  • He is a good conversationalist
  • He sends me to get my Dad
  • I'm walking with him (the horse behaviour man) & the horse
  • I'm on the left of the horse, he's on the right
  • He is a behavioural healer
    • being very gentle
  • I have nothing else to do
• Just live at home with family
• 25 years old – just a blank
• Death experience (1875)
  • See hills behind shore
  • Going underwater
  • Lake – like Lake Winnipeg, but in rural England
  • A few people are watching from the shore (about 10)
  • They see me going under water
  • Fair distance out fromothe shore (about ¼ Km)
  • Soul is separating from body & going to the light
• Lessons learned
  • To be kind (with a capital K)
  • Grow spiritually – round stained glass window circle shaped with red & blue glass.
  • Church – beige (not too big though)
  • More duty
  • Done Better – could have helped out more – had it too easy
  • Greatest fulfillment – none – just day to day – plain
  • More sadness or hurt – wanting a bigger family – too much loneliness
  • Help for current life – be more pro-active – initiating stuff – be more risk taking
  • Past life person saying to current life person – Go For It!
  • Present day to past life self – You did the best you could with the resources & surroundings you had (limited resources you had)
  • Do now? - More people in my life
  • This is a fuller life

During, and after this session, I had asked myself why I was getting this man to check out this particular horse. At first I didn't know whether I wanted to train it for horse jumping, or horse racing. But recently I re-discovered that there is a sport that combines BOTH...
I believe it was to see if it was worthy to be trained for steeplechase racing.


See also: 19th Century Past Life in Rural England - Cheltenham Steeplechase

Can you take it with you?

My last couple of posts deal with the subject of ghosts, or, stuck souls, that wear clothing like striped shirts, hats, and carry around their blue elephant stuffed animals.

This brings up the question. Common wisdom says that when we die, we can't bring our belongings up to Heaven with us, nor can we bring our monetary wealth, whether it be dollar bills or gold, or real estate.

But my experience with the paranormal over the last 3 and a half decades proves that, at least for souls that refuse to or can't go to Heaven yet, that they don't move around naked. But technically, how does this happen? If a non-"flesh and blood" spirit has a human or animal shape that can be considered par for course, but what of the other "stuff" that he or she may cling onto - like a favourite shirt, or teddy bear such as Stephen's Aurora brand stuffed elephant? After all, it is not made of human DNA, it is just fake fur and plastic eyes, but surely it is somehow created from the other soul's memory, or is somehow, because the fur and plastic also comes from God's creation - plastic is made from oil, which once were dinosaur remains.

I just wonder whether some other researchers have delved deeper into this, whether they have neared any conclusion to what exactly comprises the spirit world and how they can create or manifest non-sentient objects.

Blue Stuffed Elephant Belongs to Stephen

Tonight around 9.30 p.m. I entered trance state in my bathroom and saw Greg's two sons, Andrew and Stephen.

After a while of the boys sitting peacefully near me and sitting next to each other and things like that, I saw Stephen clutching the blue stuffed elephant that he showed me on Palm Sunday in mid-air in my bedroom. Stephen and his stuffed toy were not as brightly lit as on that Sunday, but I did catch a glimpse of it for about 2 seconds.

I have been asking since that day for them to show me who the elephant belongs to, and tonight I finally got my answer.

This also says something of my encounters with the pair. Unlike the "home movie" that Aern the shadow person has shown me that keeps replaying the same scenes of his son Joe monkeying around while undressing, before going to sleep, and then superimposed ontop of that the moving image memory of his wife as a bride on their wedding day where she walks from right to left, carrying a bouquet of flowers... the images of the boys are, I feel live, because they're different every time.

Spirit Contact Family Tree

Since November 2009 I have been introduced to 5 souls that have not crossed over for various reasons.

The first one I was introduced to was Jolly Roger Boy Hepburn, a 14 year old that I've written about in previous blog posts.

I'm not sure how or when he met the other family, consisting of younger kids Andrew, Stephen, and their Dad Greg, but it could be that little Hepburn was looking for a father-like mentor and I guess the 4 of them just became friends.

Sometimes I have forgotten to specify "Boy" (or Jr.) when calling for Jolly Roger, and instead a couple of times I have had this other male, an adult, who also has the nickname of "Jolly Roger" show up at my apartment.

J.R. Boy told me last November in a recording on the computer that he had a youger brother named Bob, but no contact has ever been made with Bob, most likely because he chose to go into the light when he died some decades ago.

Andrew and Stephen are brothers. They have a Ying-Yang sense about them. One says something. The other says the opposite. For example, I recorded them fighting over a technicality of whether I was recording or taping them. It's really a recording to magnetic media, but recording is the proper term. One would say "Is he recording us?" "Is he taping us?" Then one of them correctly concluded "He's recording us." I have also had recordings (EVPs) where they notice the blue wavy lines on the Audacity program. They have been known to fight over the mic. too. Yesterday Andrew, the older boy says to his younger brother, "give me that or I'll hit y0u.' So even in the spirit realm, where souls have not gone on to Heaven yet, they still can have issues with other souls.

These ghosts do sleep, and in trance state I have seen them sometimes more active in the earlier part of the evening and more sleepy later on. When they were more active I saw them put their hands to their mouth like a bullhorn as if they were trying to shout to me, and also put their hand to their ear to try and hear me. As the daylight has been getting longer, I was contacting (clairvoyantly) later on the day. They will start to rub their eyes, and just look more tired at 9 or 10 or 11 p.m. than at 6 or 7 p.m. My friend has human kids near the same age, and they should be going to sleep around 8.30 p.m. so I'll try and keep contact to before that time.

When I first was introduced to Andrew and Stephen in mid-February 2010, I was lying on my mattress in the evening and I felt a small human body crawl beside me, his left leg on the mattress and the right one kneeling or on the carpet. Then he whispered close to my ear "Come see what I look like, come see what I look like". The experience was just soooooooooooo cuuuuute.



On Palm Sunday I was sleeping and awoke to the sight of a wooden block with 4 rows of peg holes floating in mid-air near my b'room closet. Then it fizzled out. Then it appeared again. This time at the food of my mattress over head about 5 to 6' high. And it stayed up for a good 15-20 seconds, then fizzled out.



Third thing I saw was a blue elephant, and of course I know that elephants AREN'T BLUE, so it must have been a stuffed animal. I'm guessing that the wooden game piece was a cribbage board, and the stuffed animal both belonged to Andrew? The stuffed animal jutted forward in mid-air once, stayed there, then disappeared.