12.31.2014
12.28.2014
12.27.2014
You're too hard on yourself
You're too hard on yourself.
You get depressed when you don't allow good things into your life.
-- future son Andrew Jaworski
Expect good things. Expect them. Get your "expectors" out of the back of the closet, dust them off and start expecting good things in your life.-- Joyce Meyer, posted to facebook, 27-December-2014
Youtube - Joyce Meyer - 2014-01-10 - Focus on the positive things in life
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mE0lfrM4nWc
12.15.2014
Both Sons Now Nap With Me
Today, for the very first time, both sons successfully had an afternoon nap with me.
On the first nap from 13h to 16h (1 to 4 pm), Andrew slept on my back, while Stephen slept to the left of me.
I have a Twin-sized mattress, so there is not enough room for both to sleep besides me.
On the second nap 19h to 20h30 (7 to 8:30 pm), they reversed positions...Andrew on the left side while Stephen took on top of my back.
I believe that this is the first time ever that Stephen and I are finally bonding properly.
On the first nap from 13h to 16h (1 to 4 pm), Andrew slept on my back, while Stephen slept to the left of me.
I have a Twin-sized mattress, so there is not enough room for both to sleep besides me.
On the second nap 19h to 20h30 (7 to 8:30 pm), they reversed positions...Andrew on the left side while Stephen took on top of my back.
I believe that this is the first time ever that Stephen and I are finally bonding properly.
Stephen Energy Can Be Good Energy
My younger son said a few things to me tonight while he lay next to me, trying to get me to go to sleep... His spirit age was that of an 11 yr. old boy. It's been quite rare for Stephen to spend time with me these past few months, though I have kept saying to him "I want to get to know you more Stephen. I want to spend more one-to-one time with you". For example, last August we walked along west end Portage Ave. thru Omand's Creek Bridge together.
"You think that Stephen energy can't be good energy, but Stephen energy can be good for everyone".
He said that he perceived Andrew as my "favourite son". I said that probably tends to happen in families with oldest kids. I also said that "I want to have an emotionally close relationship with you Stephen...you are my son". He replied "That's the first time you said that to me".
"You think that Stephen energy can't be good energy, but Stephen energy can be good for everyone".
He said that he perceived Andrew as my "favourite son". I said that probably tends to happen in families with oldest kids. I also said that "I want to have an emotionally close relationship with you Stephen...you are my son". He replied "That's the first time you said that to me".
12.10.2014
Extremely Powerful Third Eye Opening Binaural Beat Meditation
Doing this 3rd eye meditation so that I can see my sons in a room - even a room that is brightly lit (like at a supermarket, mall, church or elsewhere).
12.07.2014
Randy Bachman, Reindeer, and Christmas Bells
Today I got to The Meeting Place church on time today.
After that I went to the Concert Hall to purchas a ticket for the Randy Bachman Symphonkic Overdrive (with the WSO). Literally got a front row seat.
Then went over to the RRC restaurant, and had pancakes and eggs. The eggs were the best part. Can't say much for the pancakes.
Andrew and Stephen both attended the concert. Incarnate people sat on either side of me, so my sons had to sit in between me and them (floating?) They said that the music was good but it was "too loud". I responded by saying that when they incarnate all concert music is loud like that and they'll have to get used to it.
Returned home around 17h.
Andrew said a couple of things...
"Horses sliding off of rooftops"
I said "Horses? Where?"
"Horses falling off of roofs"
"Do you mean Reindeer?"
Moonwalker or someone else informed him about what Reindeer are. Remember they came from another planet before that might not have had the story of Santa Claus with the Reindeer.
"Yeah" he replied.
Then he said "Christmas bells. Can you hear the bells?"
There was a quiet jingling sound I could hear in my left ear.
I said "yes. Where did you get them from?"
"From Heaven."
After that I went to the Concert Hall to purchas a ticket for the Randy Bachman Symphonkic Overdrive (with the WSO). Literally got a front row seat.
Then went over to the RRC restaurant, and had pancakes and eggs. The eggs were the best part. Can't say much for the pancakes.
Andrew and Stephen both attended the concert. Incarnate people sat on either side of me, so my sons had to sit in between me and them (floating?) They said that the music was good but it was "too loud". I responded by saying that when they incarnate all concert music is loud like that and they'll have to get used to it.
Returned home around 17h.
Andrew said a couple of things...
"Horses sliding off of rooftops"
I said "Horses? Where?"
"Horses falling off of roofs"
"Do you mean Reindeer?"
Moonwalker or someone else informed him about what Reindeer are. Remember they came from another planet before that might not have had the story of Santa Claus with the Reindeer.
"Yeah" he replied.
Then he said "Christmas bells. Can you hear the bells?"
There was a quiet jingling sound I could hear in my left ear.
I said "yes. Where did you get them from?"
"From Heaven."
12.06.2014
CRTC Public Hearing on specialty channel applications (July 1987)
The July 1987 CRTC hearing on "new cable specialty channels".
This was the hearing that lead to the licensing of YTV, CBC Newsworld, VisionTv, The Weather Network, The Family Channel, and making TSN & MuchMusic basic services.
12.05.2014
1772-1838 Life
I was just thinking about how a boy who was a neighbourhood bully to me...how about 15 years later, after moving out of the neighbourhood...how I forgave him for what he did to me back in the Fall of 1970.
This boy, Stephen Gressman, was my age. Years later I recognized him in the class picture from Rockwood Elementary School. We both attended Kindergarten together in the 1971-72 class.
In the Fall of 1970 I was siting on the north side of the corner of Harrow @ Warsaw Ave. This boy comes up to me...all I remember is that he fought me to the ground and he was stronger than I was...I didn't seem to have the muscles to fight him off.
In 1985 while I was going thru life issues of wanting to have my own son, I was thinking about Stephen. I think I even cried for him. I felt a connection with him.
I can't confirm whether this is correct or not, but my Divine info says that Stephen Gressman was involved in a pedestrian-car accident in 1984 and died.
I never crossed paths with him at any other school. I attended Kelvin High School 1981-85. He could have possibly gone to Grant Park.
So I think that, back in 1985 when I was asking the question "what would it be like to have my own son? "What name would I like him to have?" And that around the same time I had forgiven Stephen... I think that is how I ended up with my still to be born sons...Andrew & Stephen.
Divine info says that "In the past life in the 1800s, Stephen Gressman was a great soul to you (me). And you were a great soul to Stephen."
This boy, Stephen Gressman, was my age. Years later I recognized him in the class picture from Rockwood Elementary School. We both attended Kindergarten together in the 1971-72 class.
In the Fall of 1970 I was siting on the north side of the corner of Harrow @ Warsaw Ave. This boy comes up to me...all I remember is that he fought me to the ground and he was stronger than I was...I didn't seem to have the muscles to fight him off.
In 1985 while I was going thru life issues of wanting to have my own son, I was thinking about Stephen. I think I even cried for him. I felt a connection with him.
I can't confirm whether this is correct or not, but my Divine info says that Stephen Gressman was involved in a pedestrian-car accident in 1984 and died.
I never crossed paths with him at any other school. I attended Kelvin High School 1981-85. He could have possibly gone to Grant Park.
So I think that, back in 1985 when I was asking the question "what would it be like to have my own son? "What name would I like him to have?" And that around the same time I had forgiven Stephen... I think that is how I ended up with my still to be born sons...Andrew & Stephen.
Divine info says that "In the past life in the 1800s, Stephen Gressman was a great soul to you (me). And you were a great soul to Stephen."
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